Oh my. What a hiatus. I just looked and the last time I posted was when I was pregnant with child numero UNO. I just popped out numero DOS and am asking the question everyone else is asking...where did the last three years go???????
It took me 29 years to realize that time is finite. Of course I knew in a vague way that I did not have an endless amount of time to do all the things I want to do on this planet and to love all the people I love enough, but recently the passage of time is weighing on me. Maybe it is because I'm nearing the end of my 20s and I see that decades really do pass in a blink. Maybe it took getting married and moving (about a zillion times) and having two kids and my parents turning 60 and more than a few people I love dying and realizing that I'm now TOO OLD to be considered "young Hollywood," ('cause duh, I'm still going to move to L.A. and make it big. mom bod and all. HA.).
So many life events have finally forced me to accept the fact that time passes. Quickly. A lot of good things come with the passage of time but so do a lot of sad things. I'm grappling with this concept constantly.
I was reading through a few of my old posts the other day and I was so glad I had written them. Absurd as most of them are, it was nice to be able to look back at who I was five or six years ago and think, "I remember her!" I am not her anymore although I'm not not her either (great sentence). Reading through those old posts made me want to write more down. Especially now, now that I finally figured out that my time is not endless.
(Seriously...how did I just now realize that???)
So it will still be me prattling on about pointless things here. I changed the name a bit because I've changed a bit.
Things that haven't changed since I last wrote:
My social anxiety (WORSENED, IF ANYTHING)
My inability to tame my hair
My love of food
My desire to see people stop wearing leggings as pants
My love of trashy television
Things that have changed since I last wrote:
I can lactate now! Exhilarating!
My address (so many times...). It's Chicago now!
I don't sleep anymore!
Bruce Jenner
Two carseats in my backseat (also the amount of trash in the backseat has QUADRUPLED).
So, I'm going to try and check in a lot more often here. Promise.
